Just how much have I lost?

Saturday, July 24, 2010

bad choices

So I think i had my worst food day in a long time. I made some blueberry muffins the other day and no one has been eating them so they have just been sitting in the refrigerator. Every time I open the door they have been staring me right in the face.
The day started off nicely, had my protein coffee. We were at the hospital for my daughter and while she was getting her tonsils out we went to the cafeteria. I had 1 egg with cheese.
Got home around 1:00 and I had a lean pocket and a blueberry muffin.
Still not so bad. Well that one muffin just got me hooked. so like an hour later I decided on another.
Dinner I had turkey meatloaf and wouldn't you know another blueberry muffin. Then i had some fat free ice cream with my daughter since no one should eat ice cream alone.
Around 7 I said well I feel a little hungry how about another muffin.
Then since I was up late at 10 I said might as well make it a terrible day and have just one more muffin.

I ate them all slowly as to not get stuck,taking lots of time in between bites. I enjoyed each one as much as the first. It made me realize once again I can't have carbs in the house. When will I ever have control over foods? I just don't get it. Why couldn't I have just tossed them since no one was eating them? It like pains me to toss food that is good.

Hopefully this will be the last time I lose it. I guess I was partly stressed from the whole thing with my daughter, and frustrated with the dag on scale not moving so I figured who cares. Which is normally the attitude I have right before I gain back all the weight I have lost on a diet. I don't want to start this cycle again.


  1. Sorry you are struggling. Not to worry, just pick yourself up by the boot straps and begin again. You have lost 54 pounds so far! That is awesome. We all struggle at times, so don't beat yourself up about it. Have a nice weekend!

  2. Pick yourself up,dustyourself off and move on. We all struggle so just get back on track and don't look back!

  3. Back in the saddle. I fall into that carb trap too, oh-so-easily! One muffin/slice of bread/cookie/etc turns into 5 or 6 before I know it, so I bake the bread at night and try to give away cupcakes or cookies before I can nosh on them myself. It doesn't always work, though. :(

  4. Carbs are my crack as well... I try to eat as little as possible because a little turns into alot to me too... We are a work in progress and we will fail to resist temptation once in a while but in the end... we will not fail. So what, you ate a couple muffins... blueberries are good for you, right? Today is a new day and You are the one who decides what you eat... Not that Stupid Carb Pimp. Keep up the Good work! *Maria*-Blogger from "This one time at Band Camp..." Check out my blog at mybigfatbandgeeklife.blogspot.com