Just how much have I lost?

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

yep I threw up

I don't get it, so hungry at night but tight during the day. Yesterday I had about 6 bites of ww ziti and meatballs. Then I felt the spit. I went to go to the bathroom but someone was in there. I quickly tried to walk back to my classroom without looking like I was having an issue. I knew if I talked in the hallway spit would just come out of my mouth since it was so much.
got to the bathroom and let it all out. You know it just drips out, so weird. Then the nose starts to run and within 30 seconds I have thrown up a few times. I feel so much better what do I do? Eat my 100 calorie pack of Oreo thins.

Friday, September 23, 2011

getting a little help

Well my state has this program where you sign up to get healthier. They give you a health coach who calls you every few weeks to check up on you. they give you a menu to follow and I think some exercises to try. Also I went today to get all my cholesterol numbers tested for free through this program as well. If I follow it for the year i get 200 bucks in June. I don't even need to lose weight just keep talking to my health coach. And who doesn't love $200!

According to them I should be at 159 pounds. I am currently at 183. My BMI is 28. It used to be 40 so I am happy about that. i would love to be 159 pounds. I think the last time I was in the 150's was probably in 9th grade.

I am hoping this will put me back on some kind of accountability with myself.
The good news is all of my cholesterol is 180 and my good kind is 86 the goal is to be over 60. My blood pressure is 117/66. And the bad cholesterol was low also so I am good there. My only problem is the weight.

Monday, September 12, 2011

10 pounds!

Got on the scale yesterday and it read 185. I was like oh my that is a few pounds higher than what it has been. Then I started thinking. In April I was 175. so now I am 10 pounds heavier. This would explain the tightness of my pants. This would explain how I still can't fit in a size 14 no matter who the maker is.
I know why I gained. I made bad choices. I consistantly make bad choices. I start off every day fantastic and do well up until I come home, and then all bets are off. I had about 8 chips as soon as I walked in the door and 5 cookies. I had a scoop of mac and cheese for dinner and 2 scoops of lo mein that i made. And you know what I could eat more. This is in stark contrast to the morning where I can't get anything down. Or at lunch when I can take a few bites, or in the afternoon when I have my snack and have to eat it very slowly. Why then when 4:00 hits does all the restrition go away? I don't know, but I do know I can't go back to the way I was. And 185 is really close to 190.