Just how much have I lost?

Friday, March 29, 2013

Can you say tummy tuck?

Ok so I am at the ob talking about what we are going to do about my heavy periods that are causing my major blood loss and terrible anemia which I had to get iron transfusions for. I never knew they were heavy since I don't normally go around comparing how many tampons my friends use.  Turns out the average is 3 a day.  I am going through 8 a day with lots of clots.  Sorry for the graphic. 

While I am discussing all the surgeries I have had previously, lap band, c-section, and then I casually mentioned and one day hopefully a tummy tuck to get rid of all this skin.  then she says, "Well you know if I do the hysterectomy at the same time as the tummy tuck you don't need to pay for the anesthesia,the O.R. or the hospital stay it will all fall under the hysterectomy and your insurance."  I was like oh my goodness what a deal!  That is like 4 grand right there in savings. 

I proceed to tell her I had just made my consultation with a plastic surgeon at the end of the month to discuss my options. She said well you couldn't use that surgeon since he wouldn't travel down state but she works with one all the time at the hospital near me. 

She then continues to say I wouldn't have a scar since he would be taking all the skin off where she would be using to do the surgery and if I ever wanted one now was the time to do it because if I get the tummy tuck first and then later get the hysterectomy I would have to call in the plastic surgeon again and pay him to fix the scars and it would be very difficult for her.   The reason I say this is because I went in to the appt thinking I was going to get an ablation, where they just scrape the lining, compared to the hysterectomy.  But her things was that only lasts 3 years and then we will be right back to where we started then so why even wait. 

Anyone know of anyone who had one?  I am trying to get a guestimate on price.  I am thinking like 4 grand, which I don't have but I am sure my mastercard would be happy to lend me.  I just hate the fact I lost all this weight and still have a huge pouch.  I am also going to talk to him about taking some of the skin off of my thighs.  Now that is what really bothers me in the summer, all the chafing.  Ouch. 

They put me on the surgery schedule for June 19th!!!!!  My husband casually mentions I should lose 20 pounds before the surgery so I have more skin to cut off.  Great idea in theory, I will do my best to get there.  I did lose 2 pounds, don't know if it is due to working out or being on day 4 of these pills.  But I can't get too excited until I get below where I was. 

Needless to say I am probably the only woman in America who is happy about getting a hysterectomy but might as well do it all in one shot. 

Monday, March 25, 2013

it's not just me.

I talked to my fellow bandster the other day and she said I think my band is broken.  I said no you are just like me you dont' have enough in there.  And just like me you need something to tell you when to stop eating.  She proceeded to tell me about when some food dropped on the floor and she said well as long as the dog didn't lick it it's still good.  Or ransacking her daughters room for food that she asked her to hide so she wouldn't eat it.  I agreed and told her my story of how I found 2 egg rolls from 2 days before in the back of my husbands car and how they would probably still be good since it has been cold in the garage.
She gets another fill tomorrow, our dr won't give her big fills since she has lost 80 pounds since she got filled last year.  Her complaint is that 20 of those pounds she lost pre surgery and 20 pounds she lost during the first month when she couldn't eat.  I am hoping she gets a fill that helps her tomorrow.

I can't get mine till April 9th.  I don't even know how I can make it till then.  I have been working out.  yesterday I jogged/walked 4.6 miles yesterday.  Got on the scale this morning still 178.  I have been walking/jogging daily doing kettlebell or just dance nightly.  Due to the snow today I just did the dance video. 

A friend of mine gave me some diet pills.  He used to lose 40 pounds to cut down his appetite and speed up metabolism.  Yes I am desperate.  I am also worried I am going to die, since I am a worry wart but when I look at the scale and see 178 in the morning that means I am over 180 with clothes on at night.  And 182 is close to 190 and 190 is close to 200.  You see how I think? 

So tomorrow I am trying one pill in the morning on an empty stomach with no coffee. 

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

another 5k

I don't know if I wrote about this or not.  But one of my former students asked me to be their running buddy for a 5k in May.  Now I haven't run a 5k in probably 2 years.  I stopped when I realized that I really am bad at it.  I don't run much faster than I walk and i never figured out the whole breathing thing.  In through your nose, out through your mouth, I don't know it just never feels right.
Well I started walking/jogging around the neighborhood.  I have to drive it out to see how far it is.
The first lap tonight took me 6 minutes, next lap took me 8 and the last was 7 minutes.  I thought or hoped 2 laps was a mile but when I came back in my husband says no I think its not.  I'll measure it tomorrow to see.

So the 5k with the former student is in May, and then I signed up for another one on April 13th.  Which if you haven't noticed is really just around the corner.  I am under no assumption that I will be able to run the whole thing.  My goal is really just to complete it in under 45 minutes.  I know sad but like I said i really haven't run in 2 years and I just started praticing this past week.

Now for eating.  I can't stop.  I want everything, I crave everything, I have no restriction.  I called to get a fill and the first time in Apri 9th which is wayyyyy to far away.  they said I can call every day to see if someone cancels but what a joke.  I really need a fill i just think of food all day long.
i am up to about 45  grams of protein.  Not as much as i need so i need to do a better job of getting it in.

Have a great week.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Listen to this

I have a friend at work who was banded and lost 100 pounds.  she was banded just about 3 years ago.  Her last fill was almost a year ago.  She told me that she went on just liquids for like a week to do a cleanse.  Then this week she went back to solids.  At night she threw up in her sleep and as she explains it, it came gushing out of her mouth and nose.  The day before her breakfast came up several hours later.

The next day she went to the doctor and they took out .6 of her band.
Just thought that was crazy.  Coming out of her nose?

Her doctor gave her a scope after 2 years.  I didn't get one.  Does anyone else get one after a few years?

Tuesday, March 5, 2013


forgot to tell you two things.  First I did get my iron infusions and they made a heap of difference.  Within about 2 and a half weeks my feet and legs felt back to normal.  Also I didn't have any tingling in my hands. I was able to not want to just lay around when I came home from work.  I started doing Just dance with the kids at least 4 days a week. 
I guess I probably didn't tell you either when I was getting my iron transfusions there were 4 other woman who had gastric bypass getting their iron treatments.

I go in a few weeks to talk to my ob/gyn about what I can do to stop my heavy periods which is causing my low iron.  Not many choices, the pill I can't do since I get migraines and she said I have a higher risk of having a stroke.  Pass
Could get a shot but they have high instance of bleeding during the first 6 months more than normal which is what I am trying to avoid. Pass.
IUD - no thanks one piece of plastic inside my body is just about enough.  Pass
Hysterectomy - oh geez- pass
Ablation- guess that is my only choice that I feel comfortable with.
i just don't want to have to get iron every 5 months it is time consuming, not very comfortable, and I have to take off work.
Like I said I go back to talk to the actual doctor in a few weeks. I talked to the nurse practitioner when I went a few weeks ago. 

In hunger news, I am hungry.  Daily.  I have been trying to eat breakfast to calm down the hunger but I have been snacking and lord help me at night.  I ate 4, ok maybe it was 5 slices of pizza tonight.  It was thin crust but I ate them. 
I need a fill again.  But it feels so good to drink with no noise. 
The scale got down to 173 again, hovered at 174 for a while then back to 175.  Tomorrow I will probably be 176 I ate like crazy tonight.

Worst of all I bought mini donuts because they were on sale.  I ate so many I don't even want to tell you.  Remember I was the donut diva, me and donuts go way back.