just had a huge nsv

I decided to look at my blog and saw the what I dream about tab.
All of the things except for one I have achieved. I can't believe it. I still wear a bathing suit with a skirt but everything else is d-o-n-e! Feeling good.
I guess I need to set some new goals as I am still not perfectly happy with where I am.

still trudging along

Well it has been a little over a week and I am still working out. Now ask me if the scale has moved. WELL IT HASN'T I TELL YOU!!!
I biked about 6 miles on Saturday and my butt is hurting. I don't know how Lance does it. I mean I don't even have balls and I am thinking that would make matters worse.
Sunday was my day of rest.
Today I walked/jogged a total of 35 minutes. Only 11 minutes of jogging though. My best jogging was 21 minutes. Have I told you I am really slow.
My friend sent me my new schedule for this week.
Basically it is running 3 minutes walking 2 minutes 8 times so instead of 21 min total now I will be running 24 min total. Now mind you most days I haven't even done the 21. Then they are increasing the 35 min of total exercise time to 40 min. Well that isn't a problem.
But I am telling you I am really having a hard time with this. I know if I got a few pounds off it wouldn't be so bad so why won't the dang scale move!

It's been a few days

I have been getting up every day around 5:45 and going out and doing my exercise. I clocked it at 2 and 1/2 miles. Running 3 minutes 7 times is still hard and isn't getting any easier. And I have to admit that some times I stop short of three minutes. Today I ran a combined total of 16 minutes instead of 21, the day before I ran 2o minutes instead of 21. The day before that I didn't run at all my thighs felt like bricks.
Today I tried to experiment with my form if you say I have one. I normally run like I walk but maybe that is why I am so slow. So today I ran like more on my tip toes and it didn't seem to be as loud so I snuck up on a lot of bunnies. And it didn't hurt my knees so much. I'll have to ask my friend is there a way you need run or is just a way you like best.
She should be sending me my new schedule soon and I am worried since I can barely do this one.
As far as food goes i haven't been doing bad. I was up to 183 on Wednesday. Yea I said it and I was sick about it too. But today I was back to 181. Hoping tomorrow I will back to 180. I want to be back in the 170's soon.
What is your normal exercise routine like? Or do you have one?

I made a decision

On Saturday I went to a friends retirement party who is an avid runner, biker, swimmer, mover, shaker you know what I mean. Anyway I decided I was going to ask her for help. I asked her if she would train me through email and occasional stopping by for a 1/2 marathon! She said yes. Now I didn't realize at the time that September is only 13 weeks away. So I have a lot of work to do. She is realistic and says you won't run the whole way and the goal is to run/walk the marathon. The course is in Philadelphia and the time limit is 4 hours. So I could technically walk a 19 minute mile and just about finish it. My goal is to finish it in less than that of course.
On Sunday I ran for a total of 11 min. Not consecutive minutes. But ran them non the less. 30 seconds in I was doubting why the heck I decided to do this. But I needed to do something. The scale went back up to 181 and I have been sitting on this couch since my last 5k in March.
Signing up for this will inspire me to get moving and not be embarrased.
Today I did more walking then running total exercise time of 50 minutes. It was in the rain too. When I left at 6 in the morning it was just lightly drizzling then 10 mintues later it was full on raining but I kept going. I felt like if it rains on marathon day am i going to stop?

I also had a protein shake for breakfast yesterday and today. I am hoping the scale starts moving back in the direction it needs too as these pounds I put on since May have really irritated me.

buffet after the band

Before the band a buffet was a wonderful thing. I would eat, go back and eat some more. I would have at least 5 plates. I would sit and wait and go back and eat mostly more and more of the same things I liked. And of course I always got the icecream bar. Well in honor of fathers day and my oldest being away at camp, and my middle child being at grandparents we decided to go out to a buffet. We never go out to eat and actually eat at the restaurant. It is just too much work and too disruptive for all the other people dining with the kids.
Anywhoo. I paid 14.99 for my buffet and had a veggie omlet not that big I might add with a few bites of a banana fritter. That is it. No icecream, not the sausage I put on my plate, or the french toast, or the other banana fritter, or a salad.

Then after 20 minutes I finished my$ 3.25 cup of decaf coffee.
Way not worth what I paid for it but ......that was the point of the surgery which is what is so hard to wrap around my mind.

counting down the days

Just 3 days and then I am off for the summer. I can't wait. I'll be off with my daughter and have lots planned. Planned in the day is exercise in the pool or biking.
I am on this pill for my migrane and since being on it I have lost a few pounds so now I am down to 178. I don't quite know how since I have been eating like a lion these past few days. Do lions eat a lot? I had a big mac minus the bun. I had ice cream, and a peice of cake, nachos, the list could go on and on. Yes I feel restriction but I am just eating real slow. It is just pititful. Why am I doing this I have no idea. I told you I need therapy, and no I wasn't molested. You know how everyone on Ruby says well I am fat because I was molested as a child. I just eat because I absolutely love it.

I really wish I had a better support group here, actually a support group period.
I went to the store yesterday and got a lot of healthy foods so I have every intention of the day after my last day of work to get back on the wagon.

What are your plans for the summer exercise/food wise?

when it rains it pours

well things happen in threes they say.
So my air conditioner broke in the midst of the heat wave. I called a guy out and fixed it for barely nothing. 4 days later the compressor went. So now we need $3000 to fix it. A few days earlier I left my husbands car at my school parking lot not in the nicest part of town till 10 pm. When we went to go get it someone had jumped on the hood and bent it up. $800 of damage.
Tonight my teenager ran into our garage with van. It looks bad.

We just started a deck project using our savings to pay for $3000 the last payment is due on Sunday.

Just a lot of money all at once that we don't have. But on the positive my family and I are healthy, and the downstairs air is working, and my daughter just hit our house not a person.

I thank God for my blessings and know I can deal with what was thrown at us with his help.

i am going to be honest here

I changed my ticker to be serious with myself that I have gained 5 pounds back. I did my wii last night, but nothing today.

My air conditioning is still out and it is quite on the hot side. Hoping I can get the part I need tomorrow and fix it. Somebody came over today and showed me what was broken. I would never consider myself a fix it person but he seems to think it is within anyones ability to do.

I should get a fill maybe, but really I just think I need to show some discipline.