I am one slow runner

So in January of this year I did my new years resolutions/goals. They were to lose 75 pounds and do 3 5k's. Well I obviously am not going to hit the 75 mark in the next month but I wanted to at least do the 5k part of it.
Two weeks ago I drove to a 5k by myself and was determined to finish. I looked around and saw a really old man, a lady pushing a stroller and like a 8 year old kid. I figured I could easily beat them. WRONG. I was the official last person to finish the race. I did it in 46 minutes which I was proud of. I thought if i finish in less than 50 minutes I will call it a victory. I felt pretty good. When I went over the finish line I cried. I just couldn't believe I did it. Now I won't talk about the way they were picking up the cones after I passed them since I was so slow. Or how some people finished the 5k turned around and did it again- still beating me.

Fast forward two weeks and my next 5k. I figured if I could cut my time down by a minute I would be happy. What I hadn't planned on is how frustrating it is when everyone even people doing the 5k walk pass you. I started off with a 77 year old man who I knew was going to walk. I foolishly thought if I can just keep up with this guy I'll be good. Well when they blew the whistle he was gone! I mean like gone! Bad strategy I thought let me find someone in a wheelchair or something.

I don't have the official results but I know I was last again in the runners, and probably only ahead of 1 or 2 of the 5k walkers. Just sad that my run/walk is slower than most peoples regular walk.

I am supposed to do another 5k next weekend. Right now I am really not feeling it. I mean being last 3 times in a row really is sort of defeating.

In other news I got a fill on Wednesday right before Thanksgiving. I had to, otherwise I would have to wait another month when I had off. And I was eating like crazy, I ate a muffin, and 1/2 cheesteak with a roll with no problem. I gained some weight back and I refused to gain anymore especially over the upcoming holidays.

This fill seems to be doing the trick at least for now. Lots of gurgling so I know to stop before I eat too much. It has stopped me in my tracks from going to eat another bite or grabbing a cookie on the way out the door.

Hoping this sensation lasts for a long time and I can lose more than I have in the last few months which is like only 3 pounds.

guess I have rambled a bit too much.

halloween is not a good holiday

I used to love Halloween. I would buy all my candy a few weeks before the Halloween only to eat them all before the 31st and then having to go back out and buy more for the actual trick or treaters. Then of course all of the wonderful leftovers to sanck on throughout the day and night. Some years I would just buy tootsie rolls thinking that would be a healthier candy but eating them by the handful probably not.

This year I didn't buy the candy till the day of to avoid snacking and I bought a candy I don't love. The kids however got tons of candy and they are in my thoughts all the time. I haven't gone crazy just a few at lunch and one when i came home. How I was able to lose 2 pounds I don't know. Maybe it is becuase I am not eating that much otherwise. I took 3 bites of a chickensalad wrap from Chickfilla and rushed to the toilet to throw up. But man was it good before it came back up.

I am just so excited to step on the scale and see 189. I mean call up Cyndi Lauper I am in the 80's!!!! I don't think I have seen the 80's since the early 90's. I just am thrilled.

I was Thanksgiving around the corner and how different it will be this year. I normally live for thanksgiving but this year half the stuff I normally eat, i won't be able to get it down.