on the banded front

So I am in what you would call a plateau. Yes, I have been gaining and losing the same pound for the past 4 weeks. I go up to 198, then back to 197, and over and over again.
I stopped weighing myself a million times a day and only do it once in the morning.

This is the time if I was doing weight watchers I would just say forget it and go back to eating whatever I wanted because "no matter what I eat the scale doesn't move" Right, I mean how many times have we all said that.
Well this time I can't because I still have lots of restriction. And this really is my first plateau so I should be happy. I also keep hearing about people who have hit their 90 or 100 pounds right at about a year. I wanted to hit 75 this year and I think that is possible if I just keep doing what I am doing.

This past week my daughter had a birthday and you know you have to have cake. I had a few bites and man it was like someone pounded me in the chest. I mean it hurt. I waited a while then took another bite. I was determined to eat this cake. After 30 minutes I think i had eaten 5 bites and then threw the rest in the trash. I should have been elated that I threw cake in the trash, but instead I was heartbroken. Why because I couldn't finish the cake.

Since I am the one that normally eats all the sweets, the cake stayed in the house for almost a week. Over the course of the week I ate 4 slices. I don't think that is that bad. I mean yes I ate 4 slices over the course of the week, but compared to what I would normally eat 4 is like nothing. I guess cake is sort of like bread in how it is so painful to eat, which is a good thing.

I had some egg noodles with soy meatballs and let me tell you I really didn't love them. I know they are a lot better for you but not so good in the tast factor. Well after about 10 minutes of eating I could tell I ate too much. I had 4 meatballs and about 1/2 cup of noodles, and I was done. I ran in the bathroom and it wasn''t even like spit this time. It was just water. I mean not to be graphic, but i opened my mouth and water, not slime or spit, just came out. This continued for about 5 minutes and then I burped. And off I went to get my toes done.

It still is amazing that with all this restriction I am still stalling on the weight front. I know I need to exercise but man is it hot here! School starts back up in two weeks, I am going to need to carve out a time to exercise or else it will never get done.

I bought a pair of white pants from Kmart the other day. Size 18's becuase the thighs looked so small on the 16's. They need to get hemmed but I like them. I haven't worn white pants in I can't tell you how long. Now I just need some cute shoes.

I tried to find the clothing swap on Lap Band Talk and had no luck. If someone has the link can you link it?

I have size 22's, and I am looking for size 16's.

success and failure

My success is that I can fit a size 16. I went to Dress Barn today to see if I can buy some clothes for work. I got into them but boy did they look not so pretty. I mean call the Pillsbury Doughboy I found his rolls. My stomach just pops out!
After trying on a pair of pants 3 shirts and a skirt I put most back but the shirt. All I really need is a few more pounds and I am sure 16's will fit better but for now why even bother buying something I wouldn't wear.
The failure besides the fact I can't really wear them comfortably is that my closet has like nothing that fits. My husband teases me and says well now you can just say Ennie Meenie because you only have 2 choices to wear.
My hopes were that I would be able to buy a whole new wardrobe by the time school starts which is now only 3 weeks away. I don't know what I am going to do, because I refuse to wear the size 22 's I wore all last year with safety pins and big belts. And the 2 18's I have are too big that I can take them off without unbuttoning them.
Oh the drama of losing weight.

Can we talk?

Remember when Joan Rivers used to say that all the time?

It seems like forever since I have posted so I'll fill you in on what has been going on. First the scale, it had creeped up to 198 and then 199 then back to 198 and now it is finally down again to 197 which is where I was two weeks ago but it somehow only stayed there for like a quick minute before it moved up. Hopefully tomorrow it will be at 197 or 196. My goal of losing 13 pounds this summer seems like is a pipe dream now since I have only lost 4 and I have 4 weeks left. I have revised my goal to 7 pounds. That I guess is more attainable.

Yesterday I got my but back on the bike and biked and biked and biked. At one point during my ride I was tempted to take my knees off and put them on the side of the road they hurt so much. I biked for 56 minutes which is like forever in exercise time from a couch potato. Later in the day I clocked my ride in my car and guess what it was 7 miles! Yea I said 7 miles! Crazy.

In the food world I decided I would try a few new things like fish. I have never been a fish eater. I have always said I don't eat anything that swims but I figure I need to try. So I went out got some frozen tiliapia and salmon. I marinated the hell out of them. Then I even lit up the grill, charing my arm hair, and grilled them. I was excited but also a little nervous. I took a little bite and guess what it tasted like fish! So that was nasty just like I remembered from my childhood. Next I tried the tilapia and guess what I hated that too!

No worries I said I had a baked sweet potato in the oven that was also healthy. I took one bite and it was like orange mush. Yet another food disappointment. Last but not least I was told about these chicken and beef jerky things. They have 50 calories and 12 grams of protein. I was like hey for 12 grams of protein I am game. I took one bite of that mess and felt like I needed to be in the woods up in a tree waiting for a deer for me to shoot. Maybe if you like beef jerky or slim jims you would like it but the texture was really weird. Now they were like chicken and black bean salsa. And then there was one that was beef and mango. I will post a picture tomorrow so you can see. Maybe if I try them again later I will like them but I wasn't too thrilled. I bet if I shipped them to Survivor island they would eat them up, but when you have a rice krispie bar in your pantry it is sort of a no brainer which one is going to win the taste test.

So my attempts for trying new food didn't really work so well. But I did have a fantastic stuffed pepper. It was stuffed with ricotta cheese and vegetables. To die for. I have to find the recipe it really was delicious.

Yes I am still having restriction, I have been over my toilet spitting a few times when I took one too many bites. And in an embarrasing story I took my 3 year old for ice cream cones from Mcdonalds. I had to pull over and spit so much after only eating like half. Finally I burped and I could continue so I did finish it. I mean who is going to not eat an ice cream cone at only 150 calories. But it was pretty bad. Iracked my brain on what could have caused me to be so full I had had a fat free hotdog at 4 and this was at 7. Then I remember I had one mini muffin before I got in the car. Stupid muffins they do me in all the time!

Hope to get my butt on my bike again tonight although I don't think I will be taking quite so long of a ride. Happy monday everyone!