to blog or not to blog

I haven't blogged in a while. Maybe because nothing new has been going on or maybe because I am not sure anyone really reads this.
Well today my good friend said she was ready to have surgery for weight loss. She has been overweight her whole life just like me and has always been ok with it. Now I think she has had enough and it has really affected her health. She has really high blood pressure. Anyway when she asked about the band I said I thought that if I had to do it all over again I would get bypass.
And the reasons why were really just because it would have been faster and I would have lost more.
The only reason I didn't get bypass in the beginning was becasue I didn't want to give up sweets and I read so many people had dumping after eating anything sweet. so i guess it was me being selfish of not wanting to give up sweeets.
But i realize now that maybe I needed to do that so I would stop eating them. I still eat a lot of sweets, candy, cookies, ice cream I just don't eat them all in one sitting.
If you put what I ate on a plate for the whole day it really wouldn't be much. It is just bad choices. Tonight I had baked fries with cheese. For lunch I had some ravoli. I had a peice of toast for breakfast and a few pieces of halloween candy. And that is it. For the whole day. Really not much but it is just junk.

Now I start the jealous part of me because I know if she gets bypass she will lose a ton of weight and I will be stuck where i am at 70 pounds lost. Just a mess I am.